in love. in love?

my worst nightmare has come to life. back a few days i found myself thinking bout someone. and then suddenly it came to me: i was in love.
but wait...
i might be mistaken. i was just thinking about him. its not something odd. we think about people we know didnt we?
no. i said to myself. u think about him a lot. ur stupid.
its was not the first time. its been for  months now... crap!
not me!
it cant be! im such a douchebag when im in love. whatever this is  i wish i could put it inside my closet and leave it there. like i do with everything i dislike.
but now i see myself listening to enrique iglesias.... not the new songs. the ones frm the 90s... oh gosh noo!
maybe theres something i can do to make it stop. ill stop talking to him. yeah. its not like something will ever happen between us. haha i wish....
no! i dont. let it be.
if i stop letting myself be a giant ass i can be strong and get over it.
like i got over that terrible hair cut i had a while ago.
yeah..
it should work. i owe myself for gods sake.
isnt it?